He moved on so fast after our breakup

What Does It Mean When Your Ex Moves On Immediately? (And Seems Happy)

Last Updated on June 20, 2022 by Alexander Burgemeester

Are you upset that your ex-boyfriend met someone else shortly after you broke up? Do you want to know what this means?

It could be because it’s his way of dealing with the breakup, he had already met someone else, or he no longer feels restricted.

This can be even more hurtful, especially because he broke up with you because he said he didn’t want to be in a relationship right now.

It isn’t easy to find closure if you don’t know why something happened, so in this article, I’ll help you better understand why your ex moved on immediately. 

Why Did Your Ex Move On Immediately After Your Breakup?

Humans think about themselves first before they consider anyone else. So your ex moving on immediately after your breakup has nothing to do with you and everything to do with him.

Even if he feels guilty about it, he will do what he feels is right for him. Your ex-boyfriend moved on because it made him feel good.

Whether he was truly in love with you or not is irrelevant.

There was a void he needed to fill, and he did that by getting another girlfriend. Of course, there are plenty of other reasons why he moved on immediately, as you will soon find out.

Nevertheless, it’s also important to understand that men and women deal with emotions differently. Women talk about their feelings, and men bury theirs. 

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How Men Bury Their Feelings

After the breakup, most women first get on the phone and call their best friend to talk about what went wrong.

They analyze the relationship from every angle possible, think in hindsight, and try and unpick his brain, desperate to know what he really thought when he ended it and what he’s thinking now.

For women, this process brings emotional clarity and gives them renewed strength and confidence to move on.

Men take a different approach and bury their feelings, often leading to destructive behaviors. One study found that men tend to feel angry after a breakup because it affects their self-esteem.

Although women may feel insecure after a breakup, they are less likely to engage in destructive behaviors because they have a support network they can be honest with.

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They can sit with their girlfriends and talk about how they really feel. Men don’t have this privilege and instead will do things like drink heavily and have multiple one-night stands. 

What Does It Mean When Your Ex Moves On Quickly?

When your ex-boyfriend moves on quickly, it could mean that it’s his way of dealing with the breakup, he had already met someone else, or that he no longer feels restricted.

Here are eleven reasons why your ex moved on quickly. 

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#1 It’s His Way Of Dealing With The Breakup

Even if your ex dumped you, the end of a relationship is difficult for both parties. Unless he’s a sociopath, he does feel bad that things didn’t work out between you.

He may even blame himself and wonder what he could have done differently.

However, even though he knew it wasn’t working for him, he felt lost, and getting another girlfriend is his way of comforting himself. 

#2 He Had Already Met Someone Else

I’m sorry to be the bearer of bad news, but there is a chance that he met another female while you were dating.

He might not have been cheating, but he spoke to someone else for some time. As he got to know her more, his feelings for her strengthened, which is why he decided to end it with you.

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So even though it appears he moved on quickly, he actually didn’t. She was already in the picture. 

#3 He No Longer Feels Restricted

Maybe your boyfriend didn’t want to be in a serious relationship. Maybe he just wanted to date different women.

This happens to men sometimes, they get comfortable with a woman, but deep down, they know they are not planning on staying for the long term.

They leave when they start feeling restricted and start feeling as if they’re losing their identity. So despite what you’ve heard or seen on social media, he’s not in a relationship.

He’s just having fun with this new female. He made a mistake with you because he should have told you longevity wasn’t in his plans.

But he may have learned his lesson and told the woman he’s dating now that he doesn’t want to be in a relationship, and they’re on the same page. 

#4 He Needs Sex

You and your boyfriend had a very active sex life, and when he dumped you, that was one thing he missed.

He knew he couldn’t come back to you, so instead, he found himself a new playmate. As I’ve just mentioned, he may not be in a serious relationship with this woman.

He’s told her that this is just a sexual relationship, and she’s okay with it because that’s what she wants too.  

#5 He Feels Like A Failure

Men are competitive, and not just with other men. They compete with themselves. When he starts something, he intends to finish it.

So he probably went into the relationship with the mindset that you were the one, and he will make it work come hell or high water.

However, after a few months, he’s learned that things are not falling into place as he’d hoped. So he left because he felt that the bad outweighed the good.

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But his leaving made him feel like a failure because he wanted the relationship to succeed.

So to make himself feel better, he’s taken on another mission with a new girlfriend. 

#6 He Wants To Make You Jealous

Did you have an unhealthy tumultuous relationship where you were always playing tit for tat? If he did something to annoy you, you’d do something to annoy him.

If he did something to make you cry, you would do something to make him cry. Eventually, he got tired of it and left, but he’s decided to have one last dig at you by getting a new girlfriend.

He might not be as happy as he’s making out on his social media, but he knows that you seeing him with another woman will make you jealous. 

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#7 Men Are Good At Compartmentalizing

He may be sad about the breakup but has compartmentalized his feelings.

In other words, he’s filed them away in one of the many cabinets in his mind, and he plans on leaving it there until he’s ready to deal with it.

This is why it’s so easy for him to start a new relationship because his brain has erased you. I know that sounds terrible, but the male mind works like this.

He’s not going to sit around depressed about the breakup because he can lock his feelings up and keep it moving. 

#8 He Doesn’t Want to Appear Weak

A man who doesn’t want to appear weak in front of his friends will start acting like a player.

He knows his friends are watching him to see how he handles the breakup, so he jumps right into a new relationship to keep his game face on.

Unfortunately, if this is his mode of Operandi, he’s probably seeing multiple women simultaneously because it makes him look like the man to his boys. 

#9 He Wants To Forget About You

The relationship might have been so terrible to him that he just wants to forget about you.

On the other hand, maybe he wanted a certain type of woman, and you weren’t it, so now he wants to move on and find the woman of his dreams.

And unfortunately for you, he might have found her in this new girlfriend. 

#10 He Feels Angry

One emotion that men are allowed to feel and not get judged for is anger. If he cries or feels depressed, his friends will think he’s soft.

So to deal with the breakup, his true feelings manifest as anger. He makes himself feel better by getting a new girlfriend to get over his anger. 

#11 He’s Bringing Back His Ego

Men have massive egos, and their ego is suppressed when they get into a relationship.

When the relationship is over, the ego resurfaces and acts as a mask, disguising the man’s hurt and pain.

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So to those from the outside looking in, it appears he’s coping pretty well, but deep down, he’s hurting.

Instead of internalizing his trauma, he turns into a social butterfly so that he can reconnect with his ego. Getting a new girlfriend is a part of this process. 

How Do You React When Your Ex Has Moved On?

It’s normal for you to react emotionally to your ex moving on so quickly. However, you also want to make sure you don’t end up doing something you regret.

Therefore, you should play it cool, speak to someone you trust, and allow yourself to be sad.

Keep reading to learn how to react when your ex-boyfriend has moved on. 

#1 Play It Cool

Don’t unfollow him on social media and block him on all platforms, or you’ll come across as the bitter and twisted ex-girlfriend.

Instead, play it cool and act as if you’re not bothered. If you can stomach it, like some of the pictures he posts with his new girlfriend. If not, then just mute him.

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If you see him out, say “hi” and keep it moving. There’s no need to give him evils. 

#2 Speak To Someone You Trust

Holding in your emotions is not a good idea. Instead, you must speak to someone about how you’re feeling.

A trusted friend or family member will provide a listening ear so you can vent and get things off your chest.

Whoever you speak to may help you reframe your situation and change your perspective about it. In psychology, this is known as talking therapy. 

#3 Allow Yourself To Be Sad

It’s okay to be sad after a breakup. You’ve invested time and energy into this relationship, and now it’s over.

Whether you were with him for one month or two years is irrelevant, the time you spent with this guy was precious to you, and now he’s gone, so you’ve got every right to be sad.  

#4 Don’t Jump To Conclusions

Your mind will be working overtime trying to figure out why your ex-boyfriend has moved on so quickly.

But the truth is that you’ll never know, so there’s no point in speculating instead of wasting your time and energy trying to figure out why to focus on your healing instead. 

#5 Take Some Time Out

Unplug from everything and take some time out to get yourself together. You’ve been through a lot, and you need to process your pain.

Some people get busy dealing with heartbreak. I suggest that you be still and learn to enjoy your own company again. 

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#6 A Letting Go Ritual

A letting go ritual is something that helps you put the past behind you so you can move forward.

There are several letting go rituals, but my favorite is burning everything connected to them.

If he bought you gifts, if you took pictures together, whatever items you have of his, gather them up and take them into your backyard or a field.

Make sure you take all the necessary safety precautions and burn them. Before you light the match, say everything you need to say to your ex-partner, and watch his existence go up in smoke. 

#7 Take A Vacation

Taking a vacation is one of the most constructive things you can do to assist in the healing process.

When you travel, you leave all your emotional baggage behind and embark on a new adventure.

Even though you’re hurting inside, those wounds are not bleeding at the same rate as they would if you were stuck at home looking at everything that reminds you of your ex.

You get to be in a whole new environment with new people and plenty of activities to keep you busy. Going on vacation is peaceful.

You can engage in self-reflection without anyone else influencing you. Additionally, it encourages gratitude.

It’s easy to take things for granted when we’re exposed to the same things daily.

But being in a new country will open your eyes to new things, a new way of life, and a unique beauty you’ve never experienced before.  

#8 Get A New Hobby

Instead of moping around the house because you’re single, take advantage of your newfound freedom and get a new hobby.

It could be a new hobby or an existing hobby. Some women can get lost when they’re in a relationship and stop doing the things they love and used to do before they found a partner.

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A new hobby will help you take your mind off things. You might want to consider taking up a sport. Not only will it give you a great workout, but they’re fun.

Step out of your comfort zone and try something you’ve never done before. 

#9 Don’t Use Numbing Agents

Some people resort to drugs and alcohol after a breakup because they don’t want to deal with the pain.

There’s nothing wrong with having a night out with your girlfriends, but making a habit of it won’t do you any good because eventually, you’ll have to confront those emotions.  

Why Am I So Hurt That My Ex Has Moved On?

Having a man dump you and then get another girlfriend straight away is no fun, and it can make you feel terrible because you were already insecure, your ego has been bruised, and you feel you didn’t mean anything to him.

Here are five reasons why you’re so hurt that your ex has moved on. 

#1 Because You Are Insecure

The fact that you were dumped confirms that all your insecurities are valid.

As far as you’re concerned, he broke up with you because he can see everything your inner critic talks about.

You’re not pretty enough. You’re overweight, and you’re not smart enough. The list is endless. 

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#2 Because Your Ego Has Been Bruised 

When your ego has been bruised, it makes you feel worthless and causes you to start negatively judging yourself.

Your mind will keep cycling through everything you feel is wrong with you that led to the breakup.  

#3 You Feel You Didn’t Mean Anything To Him

As far as you’re concerned, he should be just as depressed as you. He is crying into his pillow and feeling as if he’s lost the love of his life.

Instead, he’s painting the town red with his new girlfriend, which is not fair. Now you’re wondering whether you even meant anything to him at all. 

#4 You Feel Like A Failure

You feel like a failure because you wanted your relationship to work, and it didn’t.

You tried your hardest to be the perfect girlfriend, and your efforts were in vain because he dumped you anyway. 

#5 Because You’re Still Single

Because you’re still single, you’ve got way too much time on your hands.

If you were in a relationship, you’d be too focused on your new partner to be concerned about what your ex is doing. 

Things Not To Do When Your Ex Moves On Quickly 

Although it’s hard to see your ex move on so quickly after you broke up, you’ve got to maintain your composure. Don’t blame yourself, get revenge, or stalk him.

Instead, get on with your life and decide that the experience is going to make you better and not bitter. 

#1 Don’t Blame Yourself

Listen, sometimes relationships just don’t work out. There’s nothing you could have done to change his mind.

He decided he wanted to end it, and that’s that. As difficult as it might be, you’ve just got to accept it. 

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#2 Don’t Get Revenge

Immediate revenge is sweet, but it’s not a good idea. I know you’re angry, and you’re hurting, and you want him to feel the same pain as you, but getting revenge won’t achieve anything.

After the initial high, you’ll sink right back down into the pitiful hole you came from. 

#3 Don’t Stalk Him

Don’t check his social media pages every day. Don’t call him, hang up the phone, and don’t send him text messages accidentally to get his attention.

The more you focus on him, the harder it will be to get over him. So instead, mute him on social media and delete his phone number. 

#4 Don’t Beg Him

Don’t beg him to get back together with you. You’ll make a complete fool of yourself.

He ended the relationship because that’s what he felt in his heart, and you begging him isn’t going to change that.

In fact, the more you beg, the faster he will run. 

#5 Don’t Sabotage His New Relationship

I firmly believe that whatever you put out in life comes right back to you. So don’t turn into the mean girl and try and sabotage his relationship.

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I know you want to make him suffer, but if you start being evil, evil will one day return to bite you on the butt! Also, his girlfriend has nothing to do with this.

She’s done nothing to you and doesn’t deserve your wrath. 

Final Thought

Breakups are never easy, but one way or another, you’ll need to get over it and get on with your life.

The reality is that unless you have a heart-to-heart with your ex, you’ll never know why he moved on so quickly.

So instead of beating yourself up about it, the best thing you can do is let by gones be by gones and put the past behind you. Take some time to heal, and start dating again when you feel ready.

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Sometimes, you’ve got to kiss a few frogs until you get to the prince. Eventually, he’ll find you. 

What To Think & Do If Your Ex Moved On Quickly

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    Has your ex moved on immediately? Started dating? Seems happy? Got into a new relationship even? Find yourself asking, why did my ex move on so fast? How could they, even? Well my friends, let’s get to the bottom of it all. Here’s what to think and do if your ex moved on quickly. So let’s start from the top.

    Why Did My Ex Move On So Fast?

    Before we look at what to think and do if your ex moved on quickly, let’s try to get your head around why they moved on so fast – or how they were even able to.

    Because I know what you’re thinking…

    Why don’t they miss me? How can they just carry on? Did I mean NOTHING to them?

    Then there’s the turmoil of…

    Surely this can’t be happening? This can’t be real or true? They must be testing me? Trying to get a reaction? They can’t possibly have genuinely moved on that fast…

    The thing is, this is just your mind struggling to process it, and trying to fight it. You have to take a step back and:

    1) See the situation for what it is.

    Look for the signs your ex is over you and the signs they’re not coming back, to give you the clarity and acceptance you really need.

    2) See that this is the way it HAS to be.

    I mean on the flip-side, let’s say your ex isn’t genuinely over you and them seemingly being over you is just them messing with your head or you getting it wrong…

    Well then you have to ask the question:

    “Could I even get back with them straight away, right now?!”

    The answer is no. Because if you jump straight back into a relationship, you won’t have given it enough time to change (if that’s even possible) and you can’t think clearly right now to see if it’s even the right thing.

    So the best thing you can do in this situation, is to work through the process of dealing with your ex moving on (whether it’s 100% the truth or not) to that you don’t “lose your mind” over it.

    But Why Do Exes Move On So Fast?

    If you’re struggling with acceptance as you don’t have the understanding as to why your ex has moved on so quickly, well, it could be down to a number of things…

    Maybe the relationship was toxic and your ex stopped loving you before the relationship was over.

    This means they were already going through the process of what you’re going through now and so have “come out the other side” seemingly faster, but they just started it earlier.

    And I know – it doesn’t seem fair, especially if you feel blindsided.

    But sometimes we start this process without even fully realising, or wanting to. So try not to hold too much hurt or anger over it.

    Ultimately, the two of you weren’t working so this is all for the better now, either way.

    What Else Could It Be?

    Another reason why you ex may have been able to move on so quickly, is if the two of you had grown into more friends than lovers.

    See, it doesn’t mean they don’t still love you or care about you. It just means they fell out of love with you, because the romantic spark and connection was no longer there.

    Now that they’re single – they’re finding it with others again (which will often happen, early days.) But it’s no reflection on you.

    So you certainly shouldn’t beat yourself up about it or scrutinise over it.

    Things are just raw right now, that’s all. And that’s why you can’t be friends with your ex straight away. But in time, you’ll see that maybe their actions aren’t quite so unreasonable…

    Is There A Chance That My Ex Hasn’t Fully Moved On?

    Now these are just a couple of valid reasons why your ex may have moved on quickly. But – of course – we can’t rule out the possibility that they may not be over you after all.

    See, one of the most common reasons why exes SEEMINGLY move on so fast however, is because they can’t stand being on their own or dealing with the effects of the breakup.

    Ultimately, when confronted with a traumatic experience, we as humans tend to react with our fight or flight mechanisms. We either stand up and fight the experience, or we “flight” and run away to try to escape it.

    Forgetting Fairytales


    So in answer to our question, why do exes move on so fast? A very possible explanation could be – because they chose to try to escape the pain instead of facing it.

    They’ve taken, what they think is, the easiest option. Yes, it’s typically the fastest way out. But it’s not the healthiest and it very rarely lasts long term.

    I mean think about it – are they happy because they’ve found the right person or because they’ve escaped their past pain?

    It is possible that it’s both but in most cases – it’s usually one or the other.

    See if your ex moved on quickly, there’s a good chance they’ve not had the chance to fully heal. This means that yes – from an outsiders perspective, they’ve moved on.

    But inside, there’s still some broken pieces. Broken pieces that will still need to be healed internally.

    The Truth Of The Matter Is…

    If your ex moved on quickly, for the wrong reasons (and not by luck or chance!), they probably won’t be fully healing right now. They’re just covering over the cracks.

    This is why you so often find situations where an ex is pretending to be over you, when – in actual fact – they’re not at all. They’re still hurting, or in some cases, are actually pretty miserable after the breakup. They’re just hiding it.

    This means that they’re likely to be in a rebound relationship, or are carrying their “baggage” from your past relationship into their new one.

    Remember, no-one should be there to take away a feeling, or fix something within you that’s broken… You have to do that internal work yourself first to be in the right relationship for the right reasons.

    So with this in mind… you can’t be envisions. Your ex isn’t in a better position than you for “apparently” moving on quickly.

    In fact, if they’ve done it to escape the pain – and this is a partner – nothing will be better at all.

    What To Think If Your Ex Moved On Quickly

    With this in mind, doesn’t it shift the way you see things when it comes to why your ex moved on quickly? You start to think:

    Hold up a minute… this is nothing to do with me, nor is it a reflection on me. And however my ex chooses to deal with the breakup, it doesn’t really matter anymore.

    See, you can’t control how anyone else feels and responds. You’ll also very rarely know what’s going through a person’s mind, bubbling underneath the surface either anyway.

    But as soon as you accept that, and feel okay with it, it starts to get easier.

    You don’t need to have all the answers. All you need is to stop asking questions that aren’t helpful. As these will only hold you back.

    • Why has my ex moved on so quickly?
    • What does it mean?
    • Don’t they care?

    I know it’s hard to get your head around, but it honestly doesn’t matter. (And the more you tell yourself this, the sooner you’ll feel it.)

    Your ex is in the past now and it’s all about looking forward to the future.

    “My Ex Moved On Immediately”

    Now we often get write ins saying things like “my ex moved on immediately.” And we get it. It is especially hard when your ex literally goes from you to someone else.

    You start to think:

    • Was there a cross-over?
    • Were they cheating on me?
    • When did they stop loving me and start thinking about other people?

    So, what to do and think when your ex moves on immediately?

    Well exactly the same as if your ex moved on quickly, because it doesn’t matter how long it’s been.

    You just have to understand that that’s their way of going about it… And try not to obsess over the “what ifs. ” Because the truth is – in many cases, you’ll never even know for sure anyway.

    You can scrutinise, you can fixate on this, you can allow it to go around and around in your head…

    Or you can refuse NOT to let it and to focus on YOUR journey and how YOU will move froward now instead.

    To help you deal with this, I highly recommend following the same process of how to gain closure when you don’t understand why it ended.

    • Click Here: How To Create Your Own Closure After a Breakup

    Essentially you need to feel the pain, grieve the loss, but create your own closure by finding the most logical explanation and running with that in your mind, instead of saying stuck in “detective mode.”

    You take control by determining your own explanation and story.

    And this doesn’t mean you have to make up lies or live off things you don’t even know is true. Your “theory” will still be based on facts.

    But it just means you have something more concrete to help you accept and let go.

    What If My Ex Moved On Quickly… And It Works Out?

    Now in all of this, you’re probably hoping that if your ex moved on quickly, it won’t work out with that new person. But in all honesty, sometimes it does.

    This doesn’t mean that there won’t be more road bumps in that relationship than you’ll realise, BECAUSE of the fact they moved on a little too fast.

    But it is also possible that your ex moved on quickly and genuinely moved on.

    I mean, we offer a Heal From Heartbreak Coaching Programme’s so it is possible to work through it in a shorter space of time.

    But most people don’t do what they need to. They try to rush the process so it’s not real.

    Of course it is possible that your ex did manage to let go, move on and find love with someone new. This may have been faster than you can get your head around.

    After all, “some of the best things happen when you least expect it…”

    But providing your ex wasn’t actively looking for it, or trying to pursue something with someone new, it could very well be that they genuinely have moved on fast. (Lucky huh?!)

    And yes, perhaps you’re a little envious of that. But it’s not about them anymore, it’s about you. And that’s what you need to focus on from here.

    Also remember: if they can do it, so can you. If anyone can do anything, it means you can do it too.

    So it’s all about outlook and choosing the way to see it – instead of taking things personally and feeling rejected and hurt.

    What To Do If Your Ex Moved On Quickly

    So: what to do if your ex moved on quickly? Well, accept it. That’s all you can do. Accept it. Let it go. And release any pain that comes with it.

    And I know, like many things – it’s always easier said than done. But it’s ultimately what has to happen, and when you really commit to making it happen, it happens faster.

    See you have to deal with it properly. You have to deal with the anger, hurt and sadness.

    Don’t let it build into resentment, or put you on this toxic fight for revenge on your ex. It won’t help, it will only hinder your recovery.

    And yes, it’s not easy. It takes time, work and strength.

    You have to keep reminding yourself of the things you already know, be kind to yourself, and motivate yourself to keep pushing… to find your fight.

    It’s a balancing act of feeling and pushing, feeling and pushing. You can’t be strong all the time, but you also don’t want to allow yourself to wallow. Really build that emotional stability my friends.

    If Your Ex Moves On Quickly…

    If your ex moves on quickly – don’t fear it. Don’t fear your ex moving on.

    It’s going to happen. (At one point or another anyway!) And whether it happens quickly or slowly, it’s actually irrelevant. It makes no difference if you really think about it.

    What matters is getting yourself back on track: ensuring you’re able to move on properly.

    You don’t want to carry any baggage from this into your next relationships. You can also choose to heal in healthier ways, because that’s what enables you to heal fully.

    Just because you’re not over your ex just yet – that’s okay.

    Because you’re doing this the right way. And you’re on your own journey here… One that will be oh so worth it in the end.

    So I hope this help. Take care and good luck!


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    She shook her head, closed her eyes and bit her lip.

    He threw his legs over the edge of the bed. Zak grabbed the jeans off the floor and pulled them on. Violet lay on her back, her face wet with tears.

    The guy stood looking at her, and she looked at him, pain and confusion reflected in each other's eyes.

    “I love you whether you love me back or not,” the girl finally said. “And there's nothing you can do about it. I will love you until I stop. nine0006

    Zak didn't look away, but shuddered. He gritted his teeth as he reached for his bare chest, where he left it for a few seconds before turning and reaching for his T-shirt on the floor. Violet turned to the wall, her shoulders shaking with sobs as Zach left the room without another word.

    Chapter 13

    Violet didn't know how long she sat on the edge of the couch, staring out the driveway where her Prius stood alone. Maybe a minute, maybe twenty or forty, but her eyes burned and her cheeks were wet with tears by the time she forced herself back to the stairs. nine0006

    How could a girl be so stupid? How could she let herself fall in love with him again? Zach dumped her. Slept with her and ran away like last time. He took the guitar, his room was empty, and his car was missing. Part of her heart—the really stupid part that kept repeating his words—wanted to believe there was another explanation for his absence.

    And a million years later, I wouldn't want to pick up where we left off. Where we left off is the biggest regret of my life. I was in love with you as much as you were with me. It's true, Violet Smith. You have always been everything to me, Violet-like-a-flower. I want a second chance. I want two weeks with you, and if, after their expiration, you want to leave me, you are leaving. You're leaving. After two weeks, everything will depend on you. But I promise you, Violet, I will never leave you again. nine0021


    He sweet-talked his way into her pants, slept with stupid, fucking Violet on another weekend, who spread her legs again and was left alone. Again.

    The girl went up the stairs, passing her hand under her eyes from time to time, and her heart sank when she saw the time: eight o'clock. If his habits hadn't changed, then Zach got up early. He must have been halfway to New York by now.

    Of course he was halfway back to New York, idiot! Why did you even believe him? What did he do to make you trust him? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Zach slept with you, then left you and never tried to get you back. nine0021

    - Idiot! the girl screamed, banging her foot against the door of her room, blinded by tears.


    When Violet heard the front door open and slam shut, her whole body jumped. She bent down to dry her eyes with the edge of her towel and stepped back onto the landing, peering down to see Zach's tousled hair looking up at her. He held up a brown paper bag.

    — Bagels? I remembered how you liked them. nine0006

    She didn't realize she was holding her breath, but she finally sighed, emitting a strange mix of sounds: a sob along with a giggle. She clutched the towel to her chest, blinking her eyes furiously and clenching her jaw to keep from bursting into tears of relief.


    Her eyes were red and swollen, and her lips trembled as she unsuccessfully tried to smile at him.

    "Hey," the man said as he approached the bottom step. - Are you okay?

    She smiled and nodded, running the back of her hand under her eyes. nine0006

    — Yeah, I just... I woke up and you weren't here, and I didn't know...

    Zak walked up the stairs, over two steps, and hugged her. Violet was stiff at first, before relaxing into his arms, pushing her damp hair back over his shoulder.

    "You're back this time," she whispered into his neck.

    Her words pierced Zak like an arrow between his eyes, and he closed them tightly as his mind took him to another time when he didn't return. Back then, his mind was like a meat grinder as Violet kept asking if he loved her and he couldn't handle it. It took him several weeks to realize what had happened between them, how he felt about it and what he wanted. By the time Zach realized how much he loved her, how madly in love, Violet had already moved on. For the first time in his life, the man realized what he had done to her so long ago - the full extent of the damage and pain. He realized that nine years later it still had the power to hurt her, and it amazed him. While Zach spent those autumn days trying to figure out what he wanted and who Violet was to him, he was killing something inside her. And it squeezed his heart so hard that he could hardly breathe. nine0006

    Violet spoke softly to his ear:

    — When I woke up and you were gone, it was so much like that weekend, and...

    — I promised I would never leave again, Violet. You must trust me on this.

    "I want to," she said, blowing warm breath into his ear, hot arrows from which shot into his groin like wildfire. But it's hard to forget the past. It's hard for you to trust.

    The man began to draw circles on her back.

    — I just left to bring us breakfast. nine0006

    She leaned back to look at him, her brown eyes wide and filled with tears.

    - I don't know how this can work, Zach. Every time you go out for milk, I will wonder if you will come back. And if you come back to go on tour, I'll be shattered.

    — Then I will never leave you. I won't go on tour and we won't drink milk. We'll write songs and we'll fight and then we'll make up and make love and be happy and you'll believe me again. Someday. nine0006

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    He pushed her away, yes, but looking at it in a different light, maybe the girl shared her strong feelings with him and didn't give him a chance to catch up. While she was emotionally open, he was, on the contrary, secretive and mysterious. The man was finally able to deal with her, yes, but he never told her how he felt about her. At all.

    For the first time since that Sunday evening, so long ago, she realized her involvement in the situation. That night? Violet didn't tell Zach that she really liked him or that he was great. The girl told him that she had begun to fall in love with him. And if she really thought so, maybe she should have waited. Maybe she should have given him a chance to understand and accept her feelings. Instead, she was hurt, and Violet got angry and threw herself into Shep Smalley's strong, kind arms. nine0006

    “Forgive me,” she whispered.

    — For what? he asked, glancing quickly at her twice in a row before focusing back on the road. — No, Violet. No. I don't accept your apology. You didn't do anything wrong. It was I who left you.

    “I used the word 'love',” she said, wondering if after so many years it was possible that the word 'love' could reappear between them. - Not likes . And I love . I should have waited for you. At least wait a little longer. nine0006

    Raising his hand, Zak rubbed his lower lip with his thumb and then, without looking at it, extended it towards her. The girl squeezed his hand, intertwined her fingers with his and pulled them to her lips.

    “I didn't know,” the girl said. "I didn't know you cared about me."

    - There's no way you could have known that. I acted like an asshole.

    And I will wait, I will wait for you. And I'll be waiting, I'll be waiting for you.

    She took a deep, ragged breath as she lowered their hands into her lap. nine0006

    — What about the others? The other eleven?

    Tattoos were the most unimaginably safe topic at the moment.

    Yes. Hmm. Well, the one on the back of his head is the last three bars of Clair de Lune.” He stopped at the stop sign and leaned forward, raising his hair with his free hand to display the musical notes and the words “Votre âme est un paysage choisi.

    "Your soul is a chosen landscape," she whispered, reaching out to run her index finger over the words, wondering how he felt, what he thought as the needles pierced the tight skin. nine0006

    His next words answered her unspoken question.

    "That's right," Zak muttered, leaning back to catch her eye. “ Your soul… this is my chosen landscape.”

    She felt her cheeks flush and muscles deep in her body twitch under his gaze. He grinned as he studied her face intently, then came to an abrupt halt on the emergency brake. Zach lifted his shirt a little to reveal a double helix that spanned about a ten centimeter of his pelvis just above... Violet pressed her hands to her cheeks, and when she looked up, the man laughed softly, as if he could read her mind. nine0006

    - We've been rolling on my bed all the time...

    - I know! exclaimed the girl, laughing with him.

    She lived so modestly for too long that she was not accustomed to such frank sensuality. He must have decided not to tease her anymore, even though his eyes sparkled with pleasure.

    - Good. Do you know how I feel about the solstices and equinoxes? Do you remember this?

    She nodded. That year, they spent the autumn equinox together, drinking way too much on the twenty-first of September, while Zach drunkenly rhapsodized about the beauty of balance and harmony. nine0006

    - So this is the Celtic symbol for balance.

    She didn't reach out to him to touch the tattoo as she had with the others, the location made her ridiculously shy after sharing her body with him so recently, so intimately. But Zak reached across her body to take her free hand, drawing his fingers to the tattoo and placing them over her like a whisper, as if he needed her to touch him there to accept him.

    She felt his breath change as her fingers touched his skin, slowly drawing one spiral, following circles that grew wider, until she touched the flesh to another spiral, which she traced around and then removed her finger. nine0006

    Joshua Radin's voice broke through the silence of the car as Mumford & Sons faded out: "So many moons come and go alone I heard this song inside me..."

    Zach looked up and down the desert road, then, turning to face her, he grabbed her jaw with his hands and pulled her towards him. She closed her eyes as his lips touched hers in the dim light. He did it gently once, twice before moaning softly as he moved closer to her. He pressed against her mouth, open and hot, as his tongue slid into hers. Her hand pressed against the skin of his belly, pinky and ring fingers slid down the waistband of his jeans, lightly stroking the wiry hair under his fingertips. nine0006

    With his lips, the man traced a path to her earlobe, which he nibbled with his teeth, causing Violet to arch towards him, causing her fingers to curl reflexively, her knuckles brushing the hot, hard tip of his erection.

    Even with that light contact, he moaned into her ear, his breath burning and touching the sensitive skin of her neck.

    "Violet," he breathed as she leaned forward, pressing her lips against his neck, her fingers slipping even lower, wrapping around his length in the tight confines of his jeans. — We can't...

    She slowly moved her hand up and down and he stopped arguing. Zak leaned back in the seat, leaned his head against the headrest, breathing quickly and raggedly, and closed his eyes with one hand.

    She didn't really have a plan. They pulled up at a stop sign on a lonely country road in rural Maine, and it was already dark. But they couldn't have sex. They were trapped in an uncomfortable place with too many emotions, too much attraction between them, and not enough privacy. nine0006

    However, the need to touch him, the strength she felt when her touch acted on him, the intense desire to satisfy him, was so great that it took all her willpower to stroke him briefly for the last time and remove hand.

    "C'mon," Zak muttered after a few seconds, eyes still closed.

    She leaned back in her own seat and folded her hands in her lap as she stared ahead, trying not to smile. By the way he winced, Violet could tell he was in pain. Finally, he adjusted himself awkwardly in his seat and looked at her reproachfully. nine0006

    — I never considered you a teaser, Wiley. Thanks to.

    She smirked because he looked like a little boy, so disappointed and puffed up in his long-sleeved black T-shirt with the Black Maiden logo. A fierce rocker with twelve tattoos and piercings, pouting because he couldn't have Violet when he wanted her. She liked it. It made her hot and wet, her body signaling her brain to reconsider being unprotected with Zach until he passed the tests. She could unzip it right now and climb over the seat to straddle it, her back to the steering wheel as it slammed into her. Her face flushed at the thought, and she turned away from him. nine0006

    Vance Joy's flamboyant ukulele reverberated around them, cutting the tension as Zach sat up and released the emergency brake.

    "And when I'm on the dark side, I want to be your one and only.

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